Did you ever take C. S. Lewis’ test for pride? He counseled that if we want to know how proud we are, just ask yourself…”Self, how annoyed do you get when anyone else is showing off or butting into your territory?”. Well, not his exact question…but his thought! The point is, we get annoyed with someone else being controlling, demanding, and self-advancing…because…we are.
Pride causes division in human relationships…but also between humanity and divinity. The person who is always pushing others down, so that he can be above; is not going to be lifting his eyes up to The Eternal Perfect. Wouldn’t that self even avoid The Eternal Perfect, since it would cause self to wither in contrast?
As I meander after Moses on my broken road to grow in faith, I am presented with contrasting personalities in this area of pride; Pharaoh, who “refused to humble” himself before God (Ex 10:3), and Moses, who is presented as more humble than anyone (Num 12:3) and the servant of the Lord (Deut 34:5). With every contact Pharaoh has with the Lord he becomes harder set in his pride, while with every contact Moses has, he responds with growing faith.
A meandering disciple can grab hold of a principle here. Faith is opposed to pride.
So what does this Pharaoh-heart-that-I-must-beware-of, look like? It not only looks down on others by being critical and fault finding, it must have its own way and be demanding about it. It is confident in how much it knows and thinks often of what it can do for others…and God. It is driven to prove that it is right and should be appreciated, recognized, and listened to. It is quick to blame others, to correct others and slow to ask forgiveness because, after all, it doesn’t want anyone thinking it has any spiritual needs. It doesn’t recognize its own condition.
What does a Pharaoh heart look like to you? Did you take action against it? What heart medicine did you apply? I’d love to hear from you.
Blessings To You Who Meander After Moses With Me, CeeCee