The young caterpillar set his eyes on the most appealing leaf of the branch.
Determined to move toward it, he examined his many feet, wondering which one he should move first. Unable to decide, he became a victim of self-paralysis, only able to watch the leaf mockingly wave with the wind before him.
The problem in the caterpillar’s mind became a problem of his practice.
In due time, the young caterpillar’s hunger became so great that without thinking, he made his way to the leaf and it became his noon-day meal.
When he gave no consideration to anything but the prize, he was filled.
Before Jesus came to dwell in this earthen vessel, I sought with much vigor those things that are pleasing to the world. Once He purchased me though, I am in need of understanding that there is still the opportunity to employ worldly tactics in the pursuit of religious things. Haven’t I often put forth like labor to attain the virtues of the Christian life? Can’t I of my own power do the works that make me look like a Christian; embracing good morals and such? Can’t I do this, even if minimally, for a period?
I suggest it is not only possible, but is the easier of two paths and the one I’m often prone to take. It is the path that leaves me spending my time choosing which foot to put forward first. It is the one where I try really hard to be a good Christian, but find at the end of the day, I’ve spent much more time dissecting a theological principle than loving my neighbor.
I believe this is what Watchman Nee defended, holding that true faith is not demonstrated primarily by our trying; but through our dying.
It will be contrary to what has been a favorite crisp of mine, but Nee refused to see it as profitable to be more like the Christ. Instead, he wanted Jesus to be Himself living within him.
He saw this as rightly understanding all of those things Paul said like, “For me to live is Christ, it is Christ who lives in me,” and “I die daily.”